From A Lover To A Soldier

Her skin so soft beneath my calloused finger tips
One last time Ill get lost against her lips
I could say goodbye a thousand times

Crane my neck to see her eyes
In there lies the sweet cure to my demise
Oh god, I wish I could stay

Left her sleeping bound in silk sheets
Venturing to the point where war and destiny meets
But one man cannot win this war

Cool metal rests against my palm
My insides tremble watching the surrounding calm
Pull the trigger, pull the trigger

Blood, thick on my hands
I only did what my country demands
But Im doing this for her

Another bullet from my gun
And when its all said and done
Its another crimson stain on my conscious Ill never erase

One more life I dictated in my hold
Watch him die, one more story untold
Enemy lines were long ago distorted and blurred

Shed the last of my humanity
In this massacre I lost my identity
But Im just another tainted soul

Men falling helplessly to their knees
Shrieks of sorrow dance fiercely in the midnight breeze
Theres no turning back

But despite the fire, power struggle and rage
Among the naivete and men that were once sage
She was my most dangerous obsession

Cities silent but deafeningly so
The soft squeaking of a burnt swing rocking to and fro
How many bombs went off?

Third degree burns laced down my spine
The fists of death clenching this heart of mine
I only thought of her

Radiation traces intricate patterns across a glittering night
Our starlight romance drifting far away from sight
Shes the only one I could never forget

Acid rain falling beneath my slowly falling feet
It burns, this excruciating, mournful defeat
Rainbows are nothing but the puddles of yesterday

Ill scream her name with my last breath
Nothing but the pain of losing her comes with this death
Does that make me selfish?

My love for her is a breath of a whisper which I bring myself to speak
Ill allow one tear and only one to slip quietly down my cheek
Its dedicated to her

Ill pray one last time, that the angels will carry me away
While my body rots and fades, where it fell and will stay
She doesnt deserve to see me like this

Translucent lemonade tinted skies glint with the dawn of tomorrow
Shell never understand because shes drowning in sorrow
I wish I could touch her one last time

I cherish its still a heroic picture of me shell continue to see
Instead of the man I turned out to be
She was the only woman who tamed my rogue heart

Because if I lived she would mourn a different loss
Crying different tears, a different pain
She wouldnt have gotten back her lover
But a soldier