I never thought that liking you would hurt me this bad
Nor did i know that you never really cared
You acted like i was something to you
but i didn't know that you were just making an impression
You wanted me to believe all your words so you tried your possible to convince me
I could've known that deep down inside you were ashamed of it all
But it took me this long to figure it all out
I don't quite understand what i thought i would gain from all of this
now that everything has blown over
Everyone now knows about it
and i can't help but wonder what you're feeling right at this point
is it sympathy, regret, shame
or none of the above
You said that you were only trying to have some fun
but are you enjoying it all now?
and if you are, shame on you
I keep asking myself over and over again
As i sit here pondering about what it would've been like
if i never met you, known you, or even spoke to you
Many times i've tried to cry about it
but no tears can come out
i try to scream but i can barely utter a sound
I wonder if God has turned his back on me
or is this just a payback for all my past deeds?
Over and over, i tell myself that i'm gonna be alright
i keep thinking that i'm going to look back on this and laugh
But tell me, when will that be?
