Love/hate

You mean the world to me,
but it seems like you avoid me,
like you don't want to be around me,
you say you love me,
that you miss me,
you see me and yet you don't say a thing
i love you but i hat how you act sometimes,
when its just us you say i mean the world to you,
but when your friends are there you don't wanna be seen with me,
what am i suppose to think?
what am i suppose to do?
to say something, or to just let it go,
to stay or to go
it's like i don't fit into your world.
like we're just too different
would you notice if i left?
would you even care?
I'm your little secret
for no one to ever find out about,
you're ashamed,
but you won't admit it
so should i allow myself to love you
or listen to my brain and protect myself?

not done yet