My gift above

How is this fair?
you being so far away...
the pain is getting to be to
much for me to bare

so many times i just
wanted to just end it all..
you stopped me then
& now i do what i must

so many times i wanted to
just pick of the knife
and just end it then
but you told me just think of you

your my one true love
the one i want for the
rest of my life to hold
your my gift from above