Repetiton

I am tired of the lies,
fed up with the screaming,
the constant goodbyes
but never actually leaving.

I am sick of being here,
in this world of repetition.
loving you so much,
hating this situation.

I often ask myself if its worth all this pain,
if I am nothing more than a silly fool
playing this silly lovers game.

The arguments, the swearing
now almost daily
how can we say we love each other?
when all you do is bait me?

I can't help thinking
that the love we had has now gone
that you don't love me enough to change
and its pointless holding on.

the lies, the bullshit,
love each other? most days its barely tolerating.
as I feel my heavy heart weigh my down
I wonder if it is worth saving.