Lost but gained

Some may say that I have been screwed,
but I don't feel that way.
I gave up someone I loved for you, and I consider that a loss.
But I also consider you a gain.

We didn't last long,
but what I gained will last a life time.
You taught me how to love,
how to cry,
and how to be my self, someone I never knew.

You always said you didn't want to get to close,
for some day it may come down to this.
But getting close to you was like breathing, something that came naturally.
You amazed me in every word you would say and every step you took I would fall even harder.

The hours that I spent talking to you,
and all those late night phone calls,
I will never give up, nor regret.

I still try to replay them in my head,
though they seem to be getting more distant,
I'm still hanging onto them,
for its all that I have left.

It's funny, last night I had a dream,
I hoped to god it wasn't, but it was.
But it's ok, if dreams are all I have of you,
may I never wake up.