I hate the way it hurts inside when you refuse to look my way.
I hate the way my heart beats slow when I remember the hopelessness.
I hate the way my tears fall down, refusing to leave my side
I hate the way you cannot see exactly why I cry
I don't quite understand what it is
that gives you such a guarantee
That when you stop being such an ass
I'll let you come back to me
I don't know why every single night
My heart slowly turns to brick
Or why I let you tear me down
Instead of just letting myself move on with it
It frustrates me so much that I love you
And that your friendship matters to me
I don't understand why I do this
Especially when there's no hope I can see
I hate knowing that when the tears fall down
You don't want to stop them anymore
I hate feeling like my best friend's gone
and like for you I must have failed
I just hope you know it matters to me
That you're upset or scared or unsure
I care about what you're feeling
It matters to me so much when you feel insecure
I am learning to have patience
With all the people placed in my life
In this situation I guess that means you
Just know for now I am trying my best
