Kiss the Enemy

As I watched him build a fire
I felt so far away
I had so much to tell him
There was so much left to say

We haven't talked in weeks now
And it's been tearing me apart
He didn't trust me anymore
Trust me with his heart

And when he sat down next to me
Neither of us could speak
I know I'm wrong for being here
The guilt made me feel weak

He said I'm glad that we can talk
I hate it when we fight
I screwed it up, what we had
Please let me make this right

I know that you've been trying to help
Help me make it through
But she's your best friend and my ex
I don't know what to do

I know that I've been distant
But she was your friend first
I feel like hanging out with you
Would only make things worse

He smiled at me nervously
But I didn't know what to say
Why does he make me feel like this?
Why can't I look away?

Why am I risking everything?
To catch him from his fall
I could lose my best friend
I could lose it all

The only thing I care about
Are the promises she broke
All the ways she treated you
And all the lies she spoke

I'm not trying to choose sides
But she'll have to understand
I looked him in the eyes
Then reached to hold his hand

He pulled his hand away from mine
And stared down at his feet
Then he changed positions
So our eyes wouldn't meet

I'm sorry I said quickly
Still staring at his face
Not sure what he's thinking
My heart began to race

I'm tired of hurting, he said next
I just want to know why
What did I do to make her leave?
Leave for another guy

She isn't who you thought she was
Maybe she's not the one
Would you really want to go back?
After everything she's done

He said, I wouldn't go back
But sometimes it's hard to survive
When I know she doesn't care
She doesn't care if I'm dead or alive

When I saw the look on his face
It made me want to hide
How do I help him overcome?
All the pain he's feeling inside

He said, you're the only one there for me
And I don't even know why
We've never really spoke before
Except occasionally said hi

I appreciate what you're doing for me
I feel like I'm losing my mind
But you never left
The only one that stayed behind

I didn't know what to say
And didn't know where to start
How do I express the feelings
That have been hidden from my heart

How do I begin to tell him?
Will he understand?
Will he reject my feelings?
Or will he take my hand?

He told me I could trust him
He saw the confusion in my eyes
I knew I had to tell him
And stop covering up with lies

If I told him how I feel
And what he means to me
What kind of person am I?
What kind of friend would I be?

With so many mixed feelings
I couldn't help but cry
I felt so embarrassed
That I wanted to just die

He wiped the tears off my cheek
And then reached for my head
He knew what I was thinking
I knew he'd understand

He made me feel so safe
And I wasn't letting go
There was so much left to tell him
There were words he had to know

He said, sometimes I get scared
by the way you make me feel
I think it can't be true
I think this can't be real

My ex is your best friend
And I don't know what to do
I'm over come with guilt
From the feeling I have for you

When I looked into your eyes
I knew just what to say
I knew you were the one
That made me feel this way

I said, you've always meant so much to me
And everyday I try
To convince myself it isn't real
That everything's a lie

But I can't do it anymore
The way I feel is true
I fell in love with my best friends ex
I fell in love with you

It's the feeling when you're near me
And the feeling when you speak
These feelings they control me
I feel helpless, I feel weak

All these feelings, are confusing
And I wonder if I'm right
Are you worth a friendship?
Are you worth the fight?

Inside I fought a battle
Between my heart and mind
Searching for a reason
An answer I can't find

And when his eyes met mine
I surrendered to my heart
I knew I've always loved him
Loved him from the start

I told him I was scared
Scared I'd have to choose
No matter what I did
In the end I'd lose

He took me in his arms
And took away the fear
With the few words that he whispered
Whispered in my ear

He said everything inside of me
Feels like it could break
You're my only hope for change
You're the only chance I'll take

I need you more then anything
You could never know
Please just promise me one thing
That you will never go

And when I felt his lips
Pressing against mine
I knew I'd be ok
Everything would be fine

As he gave me our first kiss
I thought about my friend
Would she understand?
Or would this be the end