Missed infatuation

A cursed memory of a past relation
To remember the past memories, a desolation
Foolish to think emotions were true
Stupidity it was, only infatuation.

Through the lies and deceit, still believed.
That maybe we can face anything, unknowing
That everything again is adolescent crush.
Still through ignorance, believed without knowing.

Realizing now the fate not meant to be, and
Realizing that now a little to late. I
Declare my lost infatuated love forever lost
Though still miss her, somewhere lost inside.

The truth is, though untrue, I do crush even now
Foolish maybe, but that is what I desire
Relationship will never rise again, though I still miss.
Therefore until infatuation drowns, I am always in dire.