Why am i so confused?

I tell myself Im over you,
I tell myself its gone,
I tell myself Im happy,
So why does everything feel wrong?

Every night the dream comes back,
Every night I remember,
Every night I think of you,
How did our eternal flame become an ember?

I wish I could forget,
I wish I had never felt like this,
I wish youd never said forever,
How did so much pain come from utter bliss?

I want to understand,
I want to be the one,
I want the only thing I cant have,
How did I let you go? Now it cant be undone.

You said you wanted commitment,
You said you were in love,
You said you wanted me always,
How did I mess up something from above?

I dont care about how I feel anymore,
I dont care if i want to feel your touch,
I dont care what I want now,
How could you hurt me so much?

All I want is for you to be happy,
All I want I for you to smile,
All I want is for you to enjoy your life,
And I promise you Ill enjoy mine.

I wanted you to be part of it ,
I wanted you in my life,
I wanted us to be everlasting,
How did this cause so much strife?

Now I dont know what I want,
Now I have no goal,
Now its just me in my future,
And in my heart therell always be a hole.