I've tried a million times over. To try and understand, what I had uncovered. But the truth was just a lie, like all the others. I looked at you with hope, and u just threw it in my face, I looked at you hoping you would look back. But I fell with disgrace, because you weren't there to catch me. To catch me when I fell, no one was there, I'm afraid to tell. U moved on passed, like nothing was wrong. It felt like one of those sappy broken heart songs. That I would listen to and say that would never be me... be us. But it all came crashing down. The day u went on that bus. Now I can't get that song out my head, it's driving me insane. I don't know why I let it get this far I complain. But no one wants to listen, no one wants to know. So I'm forced to hide the pain and all the lame excuses you made. I can't explain all the hurt u caused. Only to let you know, you were my one good cause. That I thought I could conquer thought I could fix. When in the end nothing had changed. Not even you, you didn't care if u were making me blue. I was so sure you would change. That image in my head soon started to re-arrange. That night you couldn't even look me in the eye. You couldn't even PRETEND to be the man I wanted you to be. Just looking at you is disgusting. But I still love you at the same time. you are like my Kryptonite, my never ending poison. Pretty soon you'll be the death of me that is what I fear. If I don't take a step back and let you disappear. I want you gone, out of my dreams. I'm tired of living in insanity! I've been hurt way too much and lied to countless of times. But that night at the rosary is where I cross the line. I can't tell you how much it hurt. I can only say that I'll always be more alert. I'll always have my walls, b/c you I'm afraid to fall. I'll always love you and all of your faults. I hate that I can't let you go and that I'm still wishing on stars. But this has gone too far. I look at our picture one last time and I finally realize it's time. I'm sitting here with all my girlfriends and finally letting go. We're surrounded by candles and the lights are dimmed low. We're all giving up, letting our lovers be. As I take our picture and let it burn. I feel like it's my turn. To let it all be, I see the picture crumple and I must admit I feel free.
