ya-i do still love him even though things have happened (check more recent poems) and it scares me to know that he knows he could always fall back on me, that is a good reason for guys to keep girls around...but hopefully I find a better man that can be mine, not somebody elses! And yes i totally agree that he did the right thing in leaving me, and I'm happy to report that she knows about everything and they have grown closer because of it. She is a very nice person even though I didn't always think so and she deserves to have his love...