Smile now cry later..

I know the expression smile now cry later
but this is so hard to hide
it's just that i miss you so much
i want you by my side

but you are gone now
and nothing feels the same
you've changed way too much
and I'm simply the one to blame

I know that you remember
all the things we use to do
but i hope you'll always remember
how much i LOVED you

but your not the same person
i think i changed too
but most of the time i find
I'm missing THE OLD you

you asked me once
if i remember THE OLD TIMES
all the times we talked
then i remember one old time
the worst one when we fought

well my answer was left unsaid,
and then it got so weird
i just couldn't explain it..
a sad feeling appeared

it felt really awkward
what i felt toward you was shame,
shame and sadness wanting to get away,
but missing in the same =[