Wonder

Today,
July twenty second,
I didn't talk to him.
I spent the day like normal,
I laughed, cried, slept...
I thought of him,
oh god I did think of him.
But didn't get to talk,
a speechless silence.
I talked to his friends,
I talked to my friends.
But not to him,
I wonder now.
Is he angry at me,
that I didn't say a word.
I am frightened,
is he mad at me?
The silence grows,
and I'm still in wonder.