Please wait

You may not believe me
When i say i love you
But i do love you
I wouldn't tell you i did
If i didn't
Thats not the type of person i am

You make me so happy
I can't explain
I'm trying though

I know you want me to open up
And let you in
you also know how hard it is for me
to let you in
but you don't know the reasons why

I know you want me to stop backing away
away from you
As if you are going to hurt me

I know you are not going to
And yet i still back away
I don't mean to
Its just a natural reaction
for me

I think that you think
that i don't trust you
but i do babe

I trust you
with different things
like i know you won't cheat on me
i know you are here for me

But i don't trust you with somethings
its not just you
I don't trust anyone
I am scared you are going to leave me
i am scared you don't love me
I am scared you are going to hurt me
Even physically
thats why i always flinch

Yes i have doubts but
i have them with everyone
not just you

you haven't done
anything to make me feel like this
you have done nothing wrong
it's me
i just have really bad issues
with trust
as you know

but you don't really know the half of it
I'll tell you
why I'm like this
it's all because of one person

He played so many games with me
he broke my heart
he hurt me both
mentally and physically

now you know why
I'm the way i am
why i back away form you
i think you are going to hurt me
like he did

deep down i know you not
but it doesn't matter
what i know or think
i still back away

slowly i am learning
slowly i am moving forward
i just don't want to lose you
I'm scared
if i don't open up
don't let you in
that you will leave

but the one person i let in
ruined my life

by reading this
i hope you understand
more clearly now

slowly i am opening up
opening those doors
to my bruised heart
i just hope you have
got the time and patience

i hope you won't leave
because of this
I am trying though
i want to tell you things
i try but the words melt in my mouth
before they are released

Baby please say
you will wait
you will not leave
say you love me
say you will be there

That is all i ask of you
i love you

hopefully you will understand now
hopefully you will believe me
When i say i love you

I know its gonna take time
for me to adjust
but please don't close that door

please be patient

please wait