I do not want to do this anymore,
why can we not have things be like before,
when it was not a secret that we were together,
did you think that I would do this forever,
I need more than you want to give me right now,
more than physically but emotionally as well,
I am scared to tell you that I have fallen in love with you,
because I know what I keep wishing for will never come true,
it would be nice if I could just end this,
but I know what I am going to miss,
the ways you always look at the positive side,
or that night you just held me and let me cry,
I should be forgetting about you,
it is not that easy to do,
so I guess things will stay the way they have been,
or until I get the guts to say it is the end.
