Rite now they way I am feeling is indescribable, because I cannot be with you, you feel so near yet your so far away from me, nothing can describe the way I feel about you, I have so many thing I want say to you, but every time I try to tell you nothing comes out as I open my mouth, my mouth is empty even though I have so many things locked inside of me, that I want to say to you yet they wont come out, and I want to say it all because you never know what can happen in life, all the passion I have inside of me for you is like something unbelievable, so grate it makes me feel so alive but at the same time that I am feeling so great, I also feel so distraught and unbelievably hurt as I am not with you, which is the worst thing in my life not being with you is so hard as you are such an important part of my life, you make me so happy and like I can achieve anything in life if I just put my mind to it, that's what I love about being with you because I feel that my life is whole because we are together, I try to block out all the pain I have inside of me, but some how it comes creeping up on me when I dont expect it, its so hard to deal with but I deal with it the best way I can because I love you!
