The sound of silence screaming at me non stop
The thoughts that run through my mind
It wasn't supposed to end like this
I thought things would turn out fine
But the mistakes I’ve made and the things I’ve done
Are questionable and outrageous
I’ve never been so wrong in my life
I hope it’s not contagious
I know I let you down more than a few times
And this time I over did it
I screw up things and I never seem to learn
But I’m strong enough to admit it
They’re my problems and my mistakes
I’ve learned to dei've with it on my own
Save your breathe, don’t need your hand
I’ll make it through alone
I fool you with my smile and laugh
But if you really looked inside you would see
A girl who’s so messed up in life
It hurts for her to breathe
A girl that lives each day with fear
Of losing more of herself than she can find
The memories haunt her in the untouched areas
Of her darkened mind
The tears she cries of blood and hurt
That gets worse every day
But no, she has to bottle it up
There’s nothing she can say
They don’t understand who she really is
And what she really stands for
When she tries to make things right again
She’s just another teenage w.hore
But there’s more to her than sex and drugs
If only she could make the right choices
So many things she’s told each day
But she’s confused by all the voices
That girl is there behind my smile
Hiding and waiting to be found
Waiting for people to turn and help
Pick me up off the ground
So maybe I can’t seem to make the right decisions
But living might be my mistake
Knowing how many people I’ve hurt
Is just to much to take
Soi'vehe days go by and the thoughts continue
And I still find the strength to smile
I try to live like other people
But it’s just not near being worth while
So maybe I’ll end this nightmare soon
But soon is still too long
The world is a better place with out me here
I guess I just don’t belong.
