I cry

Lately nothing i do makes you happy
and it kills me over and over inside
and i tell myself you love me
just to keep the lie alive

it hurts to know the truth
when the lie holds me together
but i cant give up on us now
because it hasn't been forever

i cant tell myself its over
i cant watch you walk away
i hold onto a thread of hope
that you will come home to stay

the love i feel moves mountains
it hums earthquakes, splits seas
its more real than reality
because its you and me

could i forget about
the way it feels with you
or about the things
we've been through

could i wake up alone
believing we are through
could i live the lie
of believing I'm over you

if there was someone out there
that i could truly find
to love me the way you did
could i get you off my mind

i keep wishing to see you
but you're not here anymore
my heart breaks more
when you don't walk through the door

what about the future
what about our plans
how do i breathe anymore
I'm not sure i can stand

you guided me through tears
held my hand through passion and pain
i fell asleep in your arms
you kissed me in the rain

now the pillows smell of you
and i cant look in the mirror
to see me standing alone
with words i no longer hear

how could i feel safe
how could i move on
because all i do is cry
now that you are gone

when will the tears stop
when will you pick up the phone
when will i feel whole?
the day that you come home

how am i supposed to feel
lost alone confused
how could i not feel
as if i have been used

you made me feel smart
pretty funny needed
you held out your hand
then quickly retreated...

but i love you still
i cant give up just now
not because its not over
because i don't know how

Eric i miss you
and always will I'm afraid
because its in my heart
you will always stay

did you really leave me
am i really alone
Eric i love you
please baby come home

and you are probably laughing
at my heartache at my pain
but you'll never know how much it meant
that simple kiss in the rain.

I'm afraid i cant go on
i wish id simply die
because i only want you back
i just don't want to cry