Stop

I wish i could stop hating you
i wish i could like you
you make it so hard
i try to forget the things you said to me
you should have never said them
you knew you couldn't, you knew you wouldn't
if i am honest i knew too
in my state of despair you said the right thing
right thing, wrong time...so wrong
laying with you felt so right
touch, passion, feelings i haven't felt in so long
i am so not me, i dont do this
dont fall
guarded i always kept myself
so many years, so much hurt
and you rip into me
i just wanted to be with you
didn't want to feel, just wanted the moment
WHY?? why did i break
i feel like a stupid little girl
with a ridiculous crush
so exposed so vulnerable
i dont want to cry, i want to strip away
down to nothing, i let you in and i shouldn't have
when did this happen, it swirls in my head and i dont know
i dont want to be lonely
i liked it better before
strings.....they entangle so quickly
i didn't even notice till it was too late.
i never should have..loved you