Lost Lies

I dug up all the pictures
and the poem that meant so much
I remembered every kiss
every smile, every touch
I remember bringing my fingers
slowly up and down your spine
and through that crazy look in your eyes
I knew that you were mine
I remember that when you kissed me
I felt it in every way
I remember talking to you
was the highlight of my day
I remember how you made me smile
by just looking in my eyes
but I never could have thought
that you would go and make me cry
make me gasp for air, cry for days
I wished that I was dead
remembering all the memories
these thoughts running through my head
you told me that you loved me
more and more every hour
that the song that we listened to
would always be ours
the lies you told me
they fill up my mind
and even though you were lying
I cant leave the memories behind
the tears on this page
are like the tears in my sleep
in the dreams that I have
of the day you left me
I go for days wishing
that you were still mine
praying so stupidly
that you would lie to me one last time
I wonder what would have happened
if I hadn't of screwed up
would we still be together
would I still be enough
would I still be wanted
would I still have someone to hold
would I still be so happy
so these words wouldn't have had to be told
would you still call me baby
and kiss me so lightly
would you still grab me
and hold me so tightly
would we still be happy
like we always used to be
would it not be my name alone
would it be you and me
all these things that I wonder
about you and your lies
but I will never tell you
they will stay in disguise
because I know you dont love me
and I know you dont care
I know your with her now
but I wish it was me there.