My Heartfelt Confession to the Ones I Loved

by Jordan W   Sep 4, 2007


I wish I'd never been so heartless
I wish I had never been so cruel
You gave me your heart on a golden platter and I brushed it aside
I can not ever know the hurt I gave you
I have hurt but I believe I gave you a lasting cut
A scabbing but never scarring wound
A re-opening gash that occurs every time we lay eyes upon each other
When I see you know I feel such pangs of guilt
Such pangs that I want to tear my soul asunder
For I have abused you so
I used you in ways not even I know
But that does not change the fact that
Of all the terrible things I brushed your heart aside
I let it fall to the ground and then proceeded to step over it
Like some piece of discarded trash
I look back and see the heartless bast*** that I was
But no more
For I am changing
I am realizing my selfish and erroneous ways
I am re-creating my self
No longer the arrogant pig I once was
For you I change
I seek not your heart for you will never willingly give it back
And I am sure that I will never be the right one to accept such a precious gift
For you I change
In order to further push onward in this world of love and passion
I wish to become the compassionate person
That so many who read my poetry perceive me to be
I wish to become a beautiful person on the inside
And to forge from my mistakes and terrible misdeeds a new person
And if you find yourself reading this I believe you will hear the sorrow in my heart
And see it written in all these words
In all these poems that I write
And I ask not for your forgiveness but just that you understand how sorry I truly am

This was not written for any one of the women i've hurt but rather for all of them.
I'm sorry from the bottom of my heart

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  • 16 years ago

    by Troubled Dreams

    WOW!
    I really do see how sorry you are. It takes a man to realize his ways were wrong. you have done that in such a passionate way.
    I hope the girls that you did that to think about it after that read it and find a way to forgive you.
    : )
    cryNOmore

  • 16 years ago

    by Angela

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  • 16 years ago

    by Veronica

    Ok i have a lot to say so here goes:
    A) loved the poem, really heart-felt
    B) I'm so glad you finally saw what people have been trying to tell you for so long, and I'm glad someone finally made you see. You hurt alot of girls and you seem to be hurt yourself. and honestly im glad cause without it im afraid you may never have changed. I SO happy your trying to improve yourself. that sounds bad , but it's for the best.
    C) I have no clue who this was written for since you know i got blocked out and we've talked like 3 times since but she'd lucky you love her enough to chnge for her. I mean i always say you shouldnt have to change for someone they should love you for you. but the way you were going you were gunna die alone or end up with someone the truely didnt love you.
    anyway i think thats about it. so come talk to me sometime man, i miss you :P

  • 16 years ago

    by JayJ

    You've got a heart full of love...anyone can see that. This poem is so full of truth that while i was reading it I felt a tug at my heart and a pressure under my eyes...i felt like I was going to cry. (5/5)

    Jay J

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