CRAZY WAS I ??

Crazy I was,
was to wish for you,
gained nothing, lost all,
I laugh at myself everyday,
when I went from high track to low,
streets are what I call home,
nothing to feel, my heart is a stone,
love once I did, with you I will,
still left with nothing, not even you,
not sad I am,neither am happy,
walk with no emotions, and faceless expressions,
blank from boths sides,
so blank is my card,
transparent I am, colors gone,
invisible I am,
existence denied, I walk to die,
not for you, and you know why,
i forgot to laugh,
and even to cry,
can't wish,
neither can try,
heart is gone,
eyes are dry,
weeping for you,
crazy was I??..