Dear old self

Dear old self, I am sorry, I have failed you,
The angel you once adored, is now gone,
It is because of me, and me alone,
She had withdrawn.

I dont know how I let it happen,
I still can not believe I failed,
I am so sorry I let her go,
But my love never prevailed.

It hurt so bad, I cried out,
I am sorry for being so weak,
You never were back then,
But she was so very unique.

She was always there for us,
Whenever we needed her most,
I didnt want to let her go,
But now I must be a ghost.

I have the best intentions don't worry,
I just want the best for her,
She is with someone better now,
They are closer than we once were.

I do admit I miss her,
But it was the right thing to do,
She is feeling so much better now,
And I am still being untrue.

I never tell her how much I miss her,
Or how much she is treasured,
She doesnt want to hear that,
But I swear my love cannot be measured.

I do miss her so much,
She was an angel in disguise,
There will never be another,
No matter how hard I try.

I hope you will be proud of me,
This is an extremely hard thing that must be done,
I hope you will forgive me for my failure,
But it ended before it begun.

You must know that I will protect her,
And I will never let her get hurt,
I will still keep a close eye on her,
And always be alert.

She looked so beautiful today,
Like she always does,
She has that way of shining,
No reason, just because.

There was a tear that dripped down,
As she just walked on by,
But I kept quiet,
Not even the slightest sigh.

Please don't be mad at me,
But I must now go,
I truly love her,
But I won't let it show.

You will understand I believe,
For this angel was unlike any other,
I will write you back,
And tell you how shes doing with another..