I'll Tell Him That I Love Him.

I thought I saw you for a split second,
But then I realized it was just him.
I swore you were holding me for a moment,
But it was my hope showing through again.
When I look in his eyes sometimes,
I pray for more of a spark.
Don't tell anyone now,
But I think our future is getting dark...

I know I shouldn't have these thoughts,
I know he should be my only one.
But every time I try to confess love to him,
I stop before I'm done.

Because YOU are on my mind,
Just f u c k i n g go away!
I'm sick of trying to love him,
Each and every f u c k i n g day!

Why can't I feel for him, what I felt for you?
I can't go through this again, But I don't know what to do.
I had a new clean slate, But you came back into my mind.
You've always determined my fate, but not this f u c k i n g time.

Because I'll be with him forever,
Even if it kills me.
He's perfect, even if not for me.
I'll never leave him, I'll MAKE us meant to be.

I'll look him in his eyes,
And even if I don't mean it,
I'll tell him that I love him,
Whether or not I feel it.