Special Kind Of Guy.

I thought I was OK
I convinced myself I was over you
Told myself all the pain it done now
But I wasn't being very true.

You see, I thought it would be easy
Thought I could handle it
But knowing you lost all feeling for me
Makes it harder to live.

I was so very close
I was finally forgetting it all
But, all I could do was love you
Even though you only let me fall.

I wanted so badly to talk to you
And once more be good friends
But, everything has now changed
And I'm not sure I want to go through it again.

I don't want to be hurt anymore
I hate that I still want to cry
All these stupid, sappy love songs,
All I want to do is die.

I feel so empty and cold
Feel like I'm not worth the truth
How could you lie to me,
All I ever did was love you.

I want to hate you so badly,
and sometimes I actually do
But than I start to cry,
Because I realize how much I really miss you.

And you know its not fair
It's so not right
How I constantly give you all my love
How I always put up a fight.

I fight all of the time
And every single day
I fight to be able to keep you
I fight so you won't go away.

But you never really cared
You never fought for me
You never asked me to stay
Never cared if I was to leave.

But I never did
I was always here
Always at your side
All you did was waste precious years.

Years I was devoted to you
I literally lived for you only
Now that you have taken everything
I am shallow and so lonely.

Anyways I hope you are happy
I hope she is all that you like
Everything you dream of
Maybe this time you'll fight.

I Hope she knows what a good guy she has
Hope she doesn't lose the spot light in your eyes
Even though you lived to hurt me
She should know she has a special kind of guy.