Light Vs. Dark

As I stare into the abyss
I let myself float away
Float far, far down into the darkness
I've been here for years why hasn't anyone found me?

I fly away into the clouds everyday
Daydreaming; full of hopes and wants of you
Crying from the heavens
Noone seems to notice

Time buries those memories
They are buried deep below the Earth's breast
She takes them, but soon she lets them go
Just broken memories, broken thoughts, broken dreams

Warmth has lost all feeling
I now seem to accept only darkness
I don't want that any longer
If darkness is knocking at my door, I will truly loose myself...

You have shown me such a new saide of life
Happiness; Joy
You always smile; filling my face with warmth
It's controllable, everything I thought I lost seems to be coming back

But why can't I let it in?
Darkness holds my soul
I can no longer cut it away
I have to let it go; bury it deep below

I want to be happy with you
I want to be able to feel the warmth you give me
I want so many things, but how can they all come true?
Should I just tell my heart out?

But I have been hurt before, I don't want it to happen again
My heart hasn't been mended, for the past years its been in pieces
Won't you repair it for me?
Or will you stomp on them?

I sit here now as I listen to the words of the Wind
I know now I have a chance; I can give into the powers of Light
Light will accept me; Light accepts everyone
If only everyone else could accept this new change...

If only people wouldn't judge...
Life along with others will always view me as dark
Over the years of pain and hurt why wouldn't they?
Voids this empty are best left alone but here you are fighting it

Everything has kept me down
You are the holding me up
Opening me heart everyday
Underneath my rough exterior, hopefully you'll find the real me

And hopefully I can throw away my mask
And become myself again
Finally being able
To smile once again...

(I'm sorry if I can't comment to your comments. I still have poems to type up.{Has a bunch in her notebooks})