With which do i want to spend my life?

Two men in my life.
two men with witch i love.
one so soft and tender. but not the one i am with.
the one who always holds my hand and heart.
the other who is truthful. the one with who i AM with.
the that will never hurt me.
i want them both. and never want to leave them. in my heart they will always stay. but which one do i want to spend the rest of my life?
stuck between a rock and hard place. never knowing where to turn.
how do i make my choice? i cant follow my heart anymore. it belongs to one to many people. please wont someone help me. before i leave both!