So many tears I've cried

You would think I would run out of tears,
As much as you make my cry.
You gave me a reason for living,
Alone now, I wish I'd just die.

How I can love someone,
With such a cold and evil heart,
Manupilating and transforming me
At the same time...ripping me apart!

Someone who can make my world brighten,
With just a look he has in his eye,
Someone who use to wipe away my tears,
The tears he made me cry!

Someone who owned me completely,
I never asked for much in return.
I was bi*chy and jealous at times,
But in time I was willing to learn.

I feel like I threw away,
The past 7 months of my life,
Pretend like it never happened,
Or maybe it was all just a lie.

I guess i will never know,
It's too late for the truth.
Even after our goodbye's sweet Eli,
I will never forget the real you.

**Written by me, edited by Jay**