I'm trying to understand

Baby I am sorry For the way I was to you,
I knw u sit and think 'no she hasnt gt a clue'
Bt if dat was de case I wudnt be writing this to u,

Alot of things are on my mind I need to figure out,
I got a few questions and many little doubts,

I knw u feel the very same and baby thats alright,
Becoz thats the reason why wer havin this stupid fight,

I feel we fight 4 nothing and u scream at me alot,
u may think im ok wit it bt really i am not,

I try 2 save de fights as much as I can,
because I knw deep dwn upsetting me wasnt in ur plan,

I knw we cud have future if both of us jst try,
bt the weight is kinda heavy im nt gonna lie,

There's no point in me been here if u dnt wnt me 2,
bt letting u go is sumthng that's very hard to do,

I cud sms u all day long and still get no replies,
bt maybe dats ur way of sayin I dnt wnt u in my life,

I try to let u knw that i am always here 4u,
Bt maybe i jst havent really made it very clear 2u,

I wish there was a way I cud find out hw u feel,
bt any tym i tlk 2 u its like ur lips are sealed,

I wonder hw ur feeling do I jst make u mad?,
Do u ever think of me and feel a lil sad,