Came Down In Defeat

For Skyler.

The moon is a beacon
A full, ready guide.
The rains numbs my weakness
But the pain won't subside.

A broken heart throbbing
This head full of thought
Hide in dense shadows
The life I forgot.

These hands shield my face
From invisible stares.
Glances that cripple
Leave scars I won't share.

Bent in my poison
On my feet in a ball.
Hugging myself
And waiting to fall.

My eyes are not crying
Yet my soul is a scream
A breath-taking ugly.
This is the new me.

Get through the reasons
Why I'm not for this
My head is a bullet
And my heart, a steel fist.

The velvety curtain
Has long been released
I won't cry from you
In pain, so safely.

Keep saying I'll make it.
Words I won't believe.
I've lied to myself
Said that you loved me.

A porcelain heart
Mine's been shattered and beat
I rose to your level
And came down in defeat.