This is no longer just a phobia.
I can't seem to conquer this fear of mine.
It's controlling me;
telling me to run, to hide.
I want to run away as far as I can;
I want to hide for as long as I can.
No matter where I turn,
I seems to see the bad memories playing in front of me.
I am really afraid of stepping into it again.
I don't know how to trust you anymore;
it seems so untrue.
I don't know if I should follow my heart;
it is so confusing.
I don't know,
I really don't.
Something in my mind is obstructing my thoughts.
