How could you go away life feels so different without you here an by miiside life was so great with you in it and i know i agreed to go our seperate ways (not realli) but now that it has actually happened i cant stand it when i sit here and read old emails all i think are happy thoughts but all i do is cry when i read them... i dont understand i thought i was ready to move on but i guess i was wrong.. but things are still different and i know we cant go back but its just hard to let go of the best part of mii life.. i try so hard to put on a happy face but inside all i am doing is crying...i dont understand this feeling when we decided to not continue i was ok with it and i still am but when i am alone all i do is think about you and i dream about you every night and i swore to god that you were the right one but i dont know why cause u broke mii heart so many times and made me cry about a hundred times but yet i still love you... i dont want you to think i want to try again with you cause im not sure i do i would realli like to be friends i know that sounded kinda mean but it isnt i am just trinna say how i feel and i know deep down u dont feel the same way about me like when we first met and im sure ur happy we arent going on and i dont blame you cause some how down this path we started to go seperate ways how im not sure cause i remember u promissed me that we wouldnt let that happen and it did... i remember when i asked u if we would still like each other in the future and we said of course for sure but by the looks of things i am not so sure things turned out so different then i expected well i guess wat im trinna say is i miss you alot and we havent reali been tlkn very much an i was wonderin if u missed me to and i would realli like to see you or at least tlk to you again sometime and sometime soon cause i miss you soo much
