This loving hate

Im so lonely here without you
So desperate for your touch
Despite everything; I find myself still loving you
And the memory of that last bittersweet kiss I clutch

Even though you deceived me
Making my soul grieve
After all the shit you put me through
It still broke my heart to leave

And now youve left me standing here
To pick up the pieces of your mistake
You begin throwing it back on me
Blaming me because your the fake

I understand the fact
That I did you wrong as well
But I only wanted you to know how betrayal felt
So dont blame me; youre the one who chose this hell

But what I still cannot comprehend
Is that as much as I hate you
I still feel such love
And despite reality I find myself clutching
To the memories of the person I once knew

I so badly want to write you off forever
Move on; forget that you ever existed
Your memory continues to haunt me
Always ghostly and forever twisted

And even though we may move forward
For eternity this will be our fate
Evermore between us
Will remain this loving hate