In dreams...

I must be fuking crazy,
To think that you could ever love me.
To think that we could be more than what we are,
Be more than what we could ever be.

So as I slice my wrist,
And the blood pours from my vain,
All I can think about is how much I love you,
And how you caused me so much pain.

I lay here in my pool of blood,
The rich sent of copper and cherry rose,
Your laughter fills my head,
As my eyes begin to close.

Oh how I miss your smile,
The way you would hold my hand.
And the fun times you and I had,
Doing nothing but lying around.

I miss the way I would lay on your chest,
And listen to the way your heart would beat.
It was close to being in tune with mine,
You were almost meant for me.

Now I know the truth,
I was just someone to occupy your time.
Eli, you broke my heart,
So now I took my life.

As I lay here about to die,
I wish you could just see,
How much I fuking love you,
How much you mean to me.

I don't want to do this anymore,
I wish I could just let you go...
But I can't be happy without you,
... So...

This time it's really over,
My heart can never break,
All because I loved you...
My life I did take.

I awake from that dream,
And look down at my arm...
There is nothing left but memories of you,
And a broken heart!