I saw him and i thought about it.
i saw him and i let go.
i saw him and allowed myself to flow
believing in something that really isn't so.
im standing now
i have him in my arms
im looking in his eyes
hoping it doesnt show.
he's whispering in my ears
sweet words he utter
i wish i didnt hear
he's holding my hands
touching my hair
kissing my lips
thinking i do care
i tried to force it
i tried to make myself believe
that in due time i will love him
but time's going by so fast
yesterday seems forever going to last
but all the more i tried to feel
it's my love i cant give
no matter how hard i concentrate
it's not him on my mind
it's not him in my heart
there's a reason
a simple explanation
i wish i shouldn't have to start
to tell him of the truth
the guilt im feeling now
it might seem like i used him
it may look like i never cared
but i did care and i did try
it's just that he cant stop me when i cry
not that he didnt try
not that he didnt care
it's just that behind all these
i still love the guy i used to be with.
** i wrote this poem ages ago, just thought to post it. how wrong was i when i thought i dont love this guy, almost two years have passed since i wrote this, and im truly madly deeply inlove with him now, i wus just confused when i wrote this, silly me. **
