I'm sorry for everything

Please stop saying
That I'm lying to you.
Just because you don't know everything,
Doesn't mean it's not true.

I tell you somethings.
Others i leave out.
I don't do this on purpose.
I'm just so in doubt.

If you trust me on one thing.
This needs to be it.
I don't mention my past,
Because i wish it didn't exist.

Its not you I'm lying to.
If anything it's myself.
It's not something i can change.
It's not something you can help.

Maybe now that you know
The feelings I've been hiding.
Maybe now you'll understand,
Why i feel like dying.

I didn't mean to keep it from you.
I just didn't want to believe it.
Thinking if i never told anyone,
It would be something I'd never have to admit.

I'm sorry for the pain i put you through.
I'm sorry for the day you walked away.
I know sorry doesn't change anything.
But I'm sorry is all i can say...