I don't know what you've done, and I don't know what you became-- how you are, if you've changed or stayed the same...
I don't even know how you've done in college, How'd you do for your 18th birthday in the 18th of November... would you believe I still remember?
It's hard to think about my life without you. When I went through all of those rough moments, you were the only one who was there for me...
And remember when I talked to you about my friends before?... would you believe I have no friends anymore? There's so many things I'd tell you if you were here... I can never forget you because there's no one else like you. And you probably think I'm over this thing, but nothing is what it seems-- I still see you in my dreams.
I think about you 24/7. You've taken over my thoughts. When my phone rings, I answer wishfully thinking it was you. I called your number-- its disconnected. I emailed you happy wishes on your birthday, on thanksgiving, christmas, and on new year's day... I've held your old photos since you been away...
And I read that old, long, boutiful letter. If anything I wish more in this world is to see you at least for a split second, I'd feel better.
You made my world colorful, but now the sky is grey and black.... can you please come back to make it all better? I can't live without you......
Will you ever come back?
Sincerely,
Risitas
(if you still remember, you gave me that nickname...)
