Do I still love you?

I am unable to tell it to you
Because I no more believe in you
I heartedly want to say it to you
But I already lost you
I awkwardly want to show it to you
Though I am powerless in front of you

What's ridiculous is that
My inner side knows that
And talks constantly about that
It expresses so well, that
The words used, bloom because of that
And it feels so happy that

you
me
always
but
never
together