Its so hard

It's so hard to say I love you and not burst out in tears. It's so hard to know that you're not there to help me face my fears. It's so hard to know the phone is at reach but I can't hear your voice. It's so hard to see you laughing when I'm crying deep down inside. It's so hard to just find feelings and now have to make them hide. It's so hard to live without you, more than words can explain. I wanna scream how much I love you but I hold back to not be heard. It's so hard to not go to sleep at night when I can't dream of you. It's so hard to think you might fall in love with someone new. It's so hard to not start crying when I hear your favorite song. It's so hard to sit and wonder where I went wrong. It's so hard to live without you. If I would have only known, I will never love another. I would rather be alone.