If Only...

Its so wrong but
i still miss you
and i know how long its been
but i still love you.

i know i cant
and i know i shouldn't
but i do, even a year later
despite the fact i said i wouldn't.

a part of me will love you
and will always wonder
what could have been
if only i was there,

if only i wasn't so crazy
if only i knew
knew what i had
because i had all of you.

you loved me
with all your heart
and it was all me
that tore it apart.

if only i would have stayed
if only i kept you my love
like you would have kept me forever
but now, if only is what i think of.

if only i wasn't so young
if only i hadn't put an end to our love
because its the most precious thing
that i just decided to shove
so far away, far away from me.
if only i hadn't left
if only you were still mine
if only we'd made more memories
if only i could go back in time

its so wrong but
i still miss you
and i know how long its been
but i still love you.