Sober

Long But Worth Reading....

~ I stand here and wait ~ Waiting for the paint ~ Still tacky I don�¢??t think it will ever dry ~ Fighting back the urge to cry ~ Sick or being so strong ~Sick of always being wrong ~ This paint in cases my mind ~ Smothering the monotonous grind ~ Embrace the tears at night ~ Struggling to distinguish the right ~ I have lost my self tonight ~Tears nudging behind my eyes ~ Remembering all the ridicules lies ~ Promises of my ultimate fairy tale ~ Then emerged the ale�¢?�¦ ~ An inanimate object took over ~ The man I love couldn�¢??t stay sober ~ This man was my rock ~ Not some random cock ~ Our happily ever after was taken ~ We both spent too much time faken ~ Just because they smoked a little pot ~ Not like yours did not ~ Wouldn�¢??t hang out with my friends ~ Wait till the relationship ends ~ I have lost my self with out him ~ My balls bounce right off the rim ~ I can�¢??t make a shoot for the life of me ~ Why could he not see ~ Put the glass down ~ Throw the bottle on the ground! ~ But the addiction was taking over ~ No effort to stay sober ~ So I tried to shake him up ~ I packed MY cup ~ I fully relinquished my drinking ~ I wanted to save us from sinking ~ He pushed and shoved me ~ This crazy need to feel above me ~ Struggling to keep my self esteem alive ~ I walked in to the Bee hive ~ Falsely called OUR home ~ I never felt so alone ~ The silent knives stabbing ~ And all the passive grabbing ~ I had no idea what to do ~ All I wanted was YOU ~ I fought for my soul ~ But you were what made me feel whole ~ You turned my words around ~ Making me feel no taller then the ground ~ And when I thought I couldn�¢??t feel any lower ~ You still weren�¢??t striving to be sober. ~ The arguments got worse ~ All we did was curse ~ Cursed each others families ~ Forgetting the common cortices ~ You let me cry my self to sleep ~ We were getting in to deep ~ I left you on the porch to cry ~ Swear I felt our relationship die ~ With my battered self esteem ~ I still tried to produce your dream ~ Went in to total panic mode ~ Trying to carry the entire load ~ Got the Volvo rolling ~ Despite my confidence was stolen ~ Bought the bike, trying to make us fit ~ Of Corse I couldn�¢??t get on it ~ When every night you had a sonnet ~ Immature, worthless, and lazy ~ I don�¢??t want to have your baby ~ Remember that night ~ It was an immense fight ~ �¢??I don�¢??t want to bread with you!�¢?? ~ What was I supposed to do ~ Of Corse you don�¢??t remember you were always drunk ~ I got to handle all the funk! ~ You drank your self into a spectator ~ Left me as the only competitor ~ Exhausted from trying ~ To save a relationship that was dying ~ I couldn�¢??t take any more ~ That day you pushed me to the floor ~ One last time I came to my feet ~ Calmly took my seat ~ Let you degrade our relationship ~ �¢??You go ahead take another sip!�¢?? ~ Your friend alcohol is killing us ~ No need for me to make a fuss ~ You never hear a word I say ~ Watching what you were fade away ~ Thoughtful sweet and Strong ~ Has turned in to mean, hateful, weak, and wrong ~ You had a billion warnings ~ I am packing up my things ~ I can no longer take the beatings ~ Only I know how much it stings ~ Clueless as what to do with my life ~ Only reminisce of a goal was to be your wife ~ Alcohol took you away from me ~ Why couldn�¢??t you see ~ Put the glass down ~ Throw the bottle on the ground ~ But the addiction took over ~ No effort to stay sober�¢?�¦