&& sometimes when i say im fine all i want is for someone to realize that im really not.

I said im ok.
i said im fine.
well what i really meant
was that ill be ok with time..

&& i've come to realize,
that im just another useless worry on your mind..
so im saying goodbye,
for the very last time.

..loved by no one
hated by all
no one cares
so i wearily fall
back into sleep
to escape the world
in my dreams
where my fears can even get me there..

&& im just the girl
fading away in the background again,
nearly unnoticed..

&& as i gaze into the tear stained mirror,
i realize with great dissapointment
[i am nothing]

&& my cheeks are burning
with the saline running from my eyes
as i realize that i mean nothing..
as i realize that i am nothing.

I stare out of the tear stained window,
and wonder to myself
"why am i me?"
because this is truly who i do not want to be..