&& i had to say good-bye and walk away like it was nothing...even though i knew...i was never gonna see him again.

Dear Diary,
I've decided not to write anything in here anymore cuz i dont want to remember any of this. its just too painful to have to look back and go through it again.

No matter how hard things seem to be...dont ever forget that you will always have me.

-to my bff who is going through some really hard times

Life is NOT like a roller coaster cuz once u get off u can never get back on again.

No....thats just wut i let u think.

( this is the part where ur suppose to realize u didnt know wut u had with me until u lost me)

Im like that girl in the horror movies:
everyone is throwing stuff at the screen yelling dont go back but i do it anyway.

I DONT need counseling i DONT need medication i DONT need any of that stuff...dont u see...i just NEED u...my dad.

For once i just want to say
I dont care
and mean it.

I thought we were both helping each other get back to the surface but once u reached it u just pushed me back under.