Reaching out for the hand thats not there to help me is like falling farther and farther in to a deep sleep that i cant break

They told me that when angels cry it rains
well then how come when i cry it doesnt
am i not dead.. yet??
or am i just in hell?...

You ask me to not lie
you ask me to tell you the truth

but i cant
u dont understand and u wont
its not ur falt
its mine
u dont understand
u wont understand
i cant tell u for reasons of my own
its better this way

im sorry

Am i the class clown??
no i dont need attion
i have enough
if i needed it i could get it!!
i dont fit exsacly in
but hell thats all right
its the hunks
its...me!!
im sorry i wish i was normal

They say i talk to much..
so i didnt talk
they asked what was wrong
i said nothing
but deep down inside
i no im lieing
bu theyll never no
cuz the smile keeps it all

The strong only lasts so long..
i almost broke down att school today
i almost cryed!
they almost saw the hurt inside

They tell me "practice makes perfict"
then they tell me "there is no such thing as perfict"
so y practic and y try?
cant i just give up?

Idk if i dumbed him or if he dumbed me!!! im sure hes saying he dumbed him!!!
TEARS FILL MY EYES AND SOUL

If i kill my self
then i found those who i can die for!

Shes changed and i cant catch up! i wish she would be the person who i no she can be i am she

my friend told me i was changing for the worst!