Whenever I start to feel better
Something happens to mess it up

Of course I messed up the one good thing happening in my life

Every girl looks for that perfect guy
Every girl can't wait until she finds him
But when she does she won't let him go
Until she messes up and has no choice

I thought I loved him
So why did I kiss another guy?

I always mess up
Why can't I stop?

Why am I smiling on the outside
When I'm dying on the inside?

When I don't eat I am in control
When I don't eat I am safe

Just because I'm breathing
That doesn't mean I'm living

I would rather be skinny and dead
Then fat and alive

My life as a movie would make millions
Too bad I wouldn't have to lie once