Everyday i think about how much you believed in me, how you where there for me when everyone else turned away, I remember that day in the hospital i tryed to be strong but someone that goodbye hurt the worse cuz i knew my everything was gone, i miss u

Will you come back from heaven and take my hand and let me fallow you, I cant do this anymore

So being in maine again just wasnt the same as last year with you, im sorry you had to leave, nothing has been the same for me, i lost everything

I wish you where here, only you took the time to understand me, everyday its harder, im sorry for everything, im sorry for pushing you away, I just loved you so much i couldnt say goodbye

As in other poems i wrote, My ghoast keeps taking over cuz im so unhappy i dont want to be here then puff another ghoast comes about

The cuts i made tonight tells my story that i keep trying to fight,,, How can i feel so much better but look so much sicker?

I look in the mirror i hate the person staring back, i hate myself, im the one that distroyed my family, friends and everything else

Crying all night, trying to deal with stuff, Cutting intell i cant stop, this is my life now, its never going to change!

Im so hurt, i just wanna say screw it and mess up, i dont want to keep trying!!!!!

Really??? because im doing the best i can