I never knew what it was like having a family and i relize i never will

Today as I cut I relize all the bad is coming out at me I finally feel a little free

And.. so i cut, then closed my eyes and hoped I would die

&& how can you mean so much to me , when i mean nothing to u

IM not sure what life is like without getting hurt

&& its really hard when u look in the marrior and the person staring back at u is the person that f*c**d up your life , Its hard when u relize that person is u

&& i think rite now im just better not talking because everything i say is wrong

And i cant control how much i love you , i just know i cant help it i try not to

I wonder where my daddy is on christmas , will he even think about me??

I went somewere last night someone was telling us that love hurts , i looked at them and said NO love kill's