&& how can you mean so much to me , when i mean nothing to u

I dont want to live like this, there has to be better somewere

I want to tell my dad i love him, i want him to know how much he mean to me, i will be strong and fight this so i cant be with him :(

& sometime i think if i decided not to try and be bad maybe he would finally approve of me

No one can fill that empty space were you once had your dad

I dont think anything can help my brokin heart not even the strongest glue because i had so much that got takin away from me

& the fitting has went on for 8 days so far it is getting worse, im having a rely hard time i catn be here with this going on

I never knew what it was like having a family and i relize i never will

Today as I cut I relize all the bad is coming out at me I finally feel a little free

And.. so i cut, then closed my eyes and hoped I would die