Mixed emotins fill my body
the truth is I deserve to be happy
I know they say relationships take time
I know nobody's perfect but I can't be the only one trying

When you think somethings perfect
it probably truly is too good to be true.
the eyes can be deciving
forcing my heart to believe something
that just isn't true

My angers crippling and my heart beats sore.
Truth and lies intertwined, in my eyes
maybe I don't deserve your love
my past is still debilitating
I make it so hard to be loved
I wouldn't blame you for leaving

Am I ready for this?
I wanna leave before I get hurt.
I wanna stay but I'm just not sure
that I can.
I don't think I deserve to be with him

I've finally learned my lesson.
From the teacher of heartache
Got broken one too many times,
And now my heart won't let me cry
crash and burned in all those fancy lies
heartbroken and bitter is today's objective.
pass or fail is the new lesson

You never win by hurting people and tearing hearts apart. Because you get whatever you give.

Thoughts of you causing my mind to spiral out of control.
Short breaths and mini heart attacks, at the thought of letting you get close.
Open minded to anything but that illusion they call love.
Heart break awaits me if I follow down that road.

I think my feelings are disintegrating,
my love for you is slowly fading.
is it because I ask too much?
I apologize in advance for any feelings I've destroyed,
I just wouldn't be able to face myself if I wasted anymore time.

Sometime I get caught up in the moment
and I forget to remember the fact that I'm not quite ready to give my heart away again.

The blue skies turned grey instantly,
calm feelings replaced with anxitey
hurt and anger filled my body
tears poured out of my eyes
creating a sea of uncertainty to drown my feet.